hear me.. know me.. fear me..
†•just fade away..•†
2nd day of classes..
right now, i just want everything to fade away.. i want everything to be gone.. or.. i just wanna be gone from this miserable world.. i hate living.. i have my life.. i hate everything.. i don’t wanna do anything else but fade away.. but i can’t.. why in the hell was i born in this world?? T_T
i should’ve just killed myself when i had the courage to.. >.<;; damn it.. compared to yesterday, i already cooled down a little but still pissed.. what’s with the new students?! why can joi transfer to our section and patrick to III-B when we can’t..?! why are there new students that annoy me very much?! why am i feeling like we’re treated unequally?! why do i have to do the report on thursday about a guy named Beowulf that i don’t give a damn?!?! arghh!!
3rd year life is the worst!! people around me are all liars.. they said that 3rd year’s the greatest year of high school life!! the hell.. it’s the worst!! it’s the other way around.. are they trying to make a fool out of me?! or they just want to make me experience this damn thing?! greatest, huh?? the hell with that!!
assignments.. seat works.. requirements.. they come everyday!! can’t they slow down a bit?! i mean, it IS just the starting of the school year.. why can’t they just make our assignments a little bit easy, you know?! or a little bit SHORT!! seat works.. sure, it works for me.. requirements?? yeah, i know it’s part of the starting of the school year.. but we’re just starting the school year and we’re still not used to this HEAVY works.. so, it’s gonna be much better if they take it slowly, right?? i mean, when we get used to that, we’re not going to complain about it anymore.. duh!! but if we were given tons of assignments on the 1st or the 2nd day of the school year, then we’ll really be pissed.. like right now!!
the reason why i’m writing in my blog right now is because i don’t know what to do about my assignment anymore.. i hate doing it.. i hate finding a way on how to do it.. and i hate staying up late just to figure out one problem!! one thing is that damn report on thursday.. and i still don’t know how i’m going to report it.. i know, i know, it’s still on thursday.. but.. i have to prepare for it starting now.. because who knows?? maybe our teachers will give us MORE assignments tomorrow!! arghh!! damn it..!! i hate this!! i hate everything!! i really hate everything right now!!
waaa!! i hate being a junior!! i hate it.. i really, really hate it!!
how the hell am i supposed to relax and get used to this system?! when i hate it very much!! you know.. that come-and-go style.. >.<;; i really hat it.. why don’t just have 1 homeroom and the teachers going to that room like before.. it is their job to teach after all.. and walking a little bit is not that tiring, isn’t it?? you’re going to use that against me?? well, look.. i know it’s not that tiring.. but having your bag and some of your books with you, walking around is tiring.. we also have no where to hang during recess or lunch.. we have to eat outside.. what if it’s hot?! then we BURN?! the hell with them!! when we don’t have a homeroom, we kinda’ don’t have our sanctuary where we can relax during recess or lunch.. we have to find a different place every time we eat outside.. outside’s also full of people, so it’s hotter and it’s hard to breathe.. T_T
it’s just not good for me or for US.. i really, really hate this!!
byerz!!
