STOP ME!! or i’ll DESTROY everything!!
†•something called.. "1st-day blues"..•†
so many things already happened in my life.. i must admit, at times, i come to a point where i just wanna end everything.. and THIS is one of those moments..
today’s the 1st day of classes.. yeah, i know.. i’m supposed to be excited, happy or whatever.. but.. i was not.. i was really irritated about the NEW system.. i was annoyed by our directress.. i was really pissed off with some of my classmates.. i hate being like this.. i just hate.. EVERYTHING!!
oh yeah, by saying NEW system, the new setting.. because we have to go to different classrooms for different subjects, unlike before.. and we just have 15 minutes for recess.. that only gives us time to buy our food.. and it’s not enough for us to eat.. T_T we also have no homeroom.. we have no where to hang when we don’t feel like going out.. or when we feel like it’s too hot outside.. darn it all..
at the precise moment when i entered the room, i felt sick.. i wanted to throw everything away.. i wanted to destroy the place.. it was full of cocky people.. i ABSOLUTELY HATE this class!! one more thing is that i’m with the two people that i didn’t want to be classmates with the most.. guess who?? well, that’s my secret.. haha!!
something must’ve hit me so i stopped for a bit to think.. how am i going to enjoy myself with this class?? i don’t even get along well with anyone.. well, of course, except kiri.. i hate everything!!
sure, i really wanted to transfer to the other class.. i really do.. but, as we all know, sir arnold didn’t allow it.. of course, why would he?? i mean, for the school, it wasn’t enough reason to transfer to another section.. and i think they’re separating me from most of my friends.. ahem!! specifically, gacy, ate kay, zel, pepper, abi and jep.. and of course, i know that i would get along with the others in III-B as well.. because i know almost all of them.. unlike in my class, i just know at least 1/4 of the class.. well, of course, some have been my classmates from 1st year.. but.. we’ve separated at 2nd year and now, we barely know each other.. even my 2nd year classmates and i aren’t talking that much.. what a headache!! i’ll really have a hard time with this class..
i can’t even comfortably answer a simple question.. my so-called "SHYNESS" takes over me before i could raise my hand.. damn it.. it can’t be helped.. i just have to get used to this setting.. arghh!! what a pain!! i don’t even know why that directress thought of this idea.. i mean, think about it.. the space outside is just not enough!! and with only just 2 canteens, we wouldn’t really have time to eat properly.. T_T
one thing that also pissed me off was that I was reprimanded 2 times for the 1st day of classes.. for doing what?? (1) for walking at the path walk where our entrance would be.. and (2) for going down the other stair.. what’s so bad about that?? she said that it’s an easier and sorter way to our class.. so, what?! it’s our feet..!! it’s not hers to control where they walk!! it us that become tired, not her!! so why butt into our business?!?! damn her!!
anyways, i’m really not looking forward to this year.. i HATE THIS YEAR!! i really, really, really, HATE IT!!
bye bye!!
