sadistic tendencies

†•i’ll kill you.. let’s burn TOGETHER in HELL!!•†

last night, i just confirmed something.. *sigh* i’m really getting tired of those kinds of things.. right now, i don’t want to go to school anymore.. the truth is, i wanted to drop ever since this school year started.. but i also wanted to survive in that hell-like place.. *sigh*

well, i would like to drop now, but i made a promise to one of my friends that i wouldn’t drop.. damn it.. i shouldn’t have made that promise.. you see, i’m not someone who’ll break her promise.. i always keep them.. because i hate people who break their promises.. IF YOU CAN’T KEEP A PROMISE, THEN DON’T MAKE ONE!!

the reason for all this?? actually, i was just controlling my anger and hiding it.. i knew that people talked behind my back.. i knew that they were always spreading things about me.. gawds!! even the teachers know about it.. who else can spread it?? of course, the student who know about it.. and who are those who know about it?? MY CLOSE FRIENDS, as i call them.. or NOT!! i was really mad when i knew that the teacher knew about it.. the hell with that!! someone told them.. it’s not like they’ll just know about it.. whoever that BITCH is, i’ll search for a way to make that BITCH feel the way that i do..

i was pushed beyond the borderline when i heard some laughing during MATH TIME maybe 2 or 3 days ago.. they were talking about girls and those stuffs.. but they were talking about a particular girl.. hmm.. who could it be?? they were talking about that girl’s legs and lips.. they said they were soft.. hmm.. whose legs?? whose lips?? i had a feeling of whom they were talking about.. but i still kept my cool and just continued to do my work.. they all continued to laugh.. and i heard something..

"kahit new student alam.." [even a new student knows..] a boy said.

damn it..

"siya naman nagkakalat non eh.. di ako.." [it's that person who spreads it, and not me..] the other guy replied.

damn it..

"anong hindi ikaw?? eh pati ikaw eh, sinasabi mo rin.." [what do you mean not you?? you also say those things..] the boy said again.

damn it..

then, i heard more laughing.. shit.. that made me remember of something that the guy [who said, "siya naman nagkakalat non eh.. di ako.."] and i talked about.. he said something about me spreading things ’bout us.. hmm.. it’s so annoying..

still, i didn’t jump to any conclusion.. i asked 2 people who were included with those laughing people.. and they said it.. i was the one being laughed at.. damn it..

i hate them.. i despise them.. i’m disgusted.. they’re so pathetic.. what will they feel if that was done to them?? hmm.. let’s see their faces when i humiliate them in front of the whole world..

i hate them.. I HATE THEM!!

†•something unexpected happened•†

my fingernail just died.. arghh!! it’s because of JB and that stupid door!! damn it.. my index left finger hurts so much i wanna cut it.. arghh!! >.<;; shit.. one more thing that pisses my off is the mere fact that JB said, "Che!!" to me even though he caused this!! what an insensitive person.. i hate this!! and because of that, i can’t do anything with my left index finger.. T_T i really, really hate this.. >.<;; and it’s also difficult to take a bath.. difficult to dress.. difficult to undress [this is a big problem] hehe.. ^_~v and difficult to do all sorts of things.. i can’t even use my left index finger to type.. damn!!

well, instead of being mad at JB, i just took care of my finger.. besides, i know that he wouldn’t apologize to me even if i tell him to.. he’s too stubborn.. he doesn’t want to admit that it’s his fault.. *sigh* anyway, i think that it’s getting a bit better now.. >.<;;

oh yeah, exams are finished..^^ yehey!!

†•i couldn’t help but smile.. damn!!•†

haha!! we had our SOC STUD recitation yesterday.. and i was so happy because i actually got 5 points.. my gawd.. haha!! i thought that my explanation was wrong.. but, it was right.. yeey!!^^

hmm.. oh yeah, i was late today.. haha!! it’s my 1st late, so it’s okay..^^ hmm what else?? oh yeah, i also brought the imbotido that i made yesterday.. omigod.. T_T haha!! i can’t believe that i really made it.. ^_~v oh well, it’s my way to catch up to THE subject.. ‘coz i often get a low score on quizzes.. >.<;;

at lunch time, caren and i cooked the imbotido.. shiyet.. it didn’t taste like imbotido at all.. haha!! i think it needed atchara to have taste.. T_T oh well.. at least i have grade..^^

hmm what else?? nothin’ really happened this day.. haha!! ^_~v

uhmm.. about the marquee?? well, you see, i accidently looked at someone.. i always do that.. i dunno why.. ^_~v that someone then noticed and grabbed a chair, put it in front of me and sat there.. he asked me why i kept on looking at him.. [omigod] haha!! well, with that said, i think he also noticed my ACCIDENTAL LOOKS at him.. >.<;; but honestly, all of those are accidental.. i didn’t intend any of it.. but i always look at his direction.. shit.. haha!! well, i didn’t answer him, i just couldn’t help but smile.. haha!! i couldn’t believe that he was also watching me.. ^_~v well, i thought that we wouldn’t talk because of something that he said to me.. haha!! and well, i thought that we would completely ignore each other.. O_o;; i just kept on smiling and covered my face with my hands.. haha!!

well, that’s that..^^ one more thing..

I HATE THE PERSON WHO TOLD THE TEACHERS ABOUT A VERY CONFIDENTIAL THING!! I HATE YOU SO MUCH!!

KUNG SINO KA MAN, LUMABAS KA!! PAPATAYIN KITA!! MAHIYA KA NAMAN!! PWEDE BA?! AKO, ALAM KO NA GANO’N AKO, PERO SANA NAMAN HINDI NAKAKARATING SA IBA PANG TAO!! SATIN-SATIN LANG!!

actually, may kutob na ko kung sino yun eh.. haha!! ano gusto mo?! sabihin ko lahat ng BAHO mo?!?! GAGO KA PALA EH!! mas marami akong masasabing masasama tungkol sayo!! pero di ko sasabihin kasi magiging katulad mo lang ako!! alam kong alam mo kung sino ka!! at alam mo kung ano ang sinabi mo!!

"i thought you were my friend.. i thought i could trust you.. the HELL with that!!"

†•i’ve been having these weird thoughts lately.. like.. are any of these for real.. or not??•†

haha!! yeey!! wow.. i’m so happy.. it’s coz our CAKE DECORATION went well.. haha!! i can’t believe that we pulled it off.. whew!! *sigh of relief* haha!! omigod.. i thought that we wouldn’t be able to do it right.. but thankfully, everything went fine.. hehe.. except for the fact that the ready whip that i bought that’s worth 200 pesos was a waste.. i didn’t even have a taste of it.. hahe.. ^_~v but i’m still happy because our cake turned out well..^^ it looks like a little girl’s birthday cake.. huwai..^^ so cute.. it has a chocolate milk icing for cover, a writing REYAL [royal+regal], flower marsh mallows, yellow chocolate, and vanilla icing for decorations..^^

hmm.. what else happened today?? nothing much, really.. i was just so happy about our CAKE..^^

oh yeah.. we also made detergent powder at chem.. haha!! we were actually supposed to make dishwashing liquid.. but the ingredients used for it was only brought at lunchtime, so we made the detergent powder instead.. the hell.. the detergent powder’s smell was so strong.. arghh!! hehe.. it was hard to breathe at the lab.. but we still have to stay because we need to observe what happens.. ma’am annabelle said that it’s an essay included in our periodical exam.. T_T anyways, we were able to finish it.. haha!!^^

bye bye >.<;;