sadistic tendencies

†•let’s just say that my misfortune’s been paid..•†

well, today.. i was depressed about something.. the truth is i was really sad when i saw and heard something.. those were words that are just hard to accept and swallow.. i hate feeling this kind of feeling.. when i told myself that i would already move on.. i hate myself for letting my guard down.. and to let such emotions fill me.. mixed with the others is an emotion that is commonly known as "jealousy".. i didn’t want to feel that way.. but instead, it got worse.. i felt anger and irritation.. and it made me so weak.. *sigh* that was how my morning started..

the happy part?? well, you see.. i have this crush on one of the ROYAL [other 3rd year section] students.. *sigh* and today, i got his cell phone number, he stood beside me, he wrapped his arm ’round my shoulder [akbay] and i was just so happy.. i almost went MAD when i got to the THE room.. haha!! and i let out of the happiness that i felt there.. haha!!

it’s been a long time since i felt that way.. haha!! well, actually, i was a bit down the past few days.. and it was because i thought that he knew that i had a crush on him.. and because of that, i thought that he purposely avoids me.. huwaa.. well, i guess i was wrong to think that way of him.. haha!!^^

oh well, ’nuff of this mushy stuff.. bye bye!!

†•although it was never complete•†

well, i was absent today, because we picked up my sister from the airport..^^ she arrived today.. haha!!

well, actually, i’d like to think that "FINALLY WE’RE COMPLETE".. you know, the family-thing.. but i guess we can never be complete.. *sigh* it’s so sad to think that we got used to this system now.. it’s like it was natural for us.. to have one parent at a time..

we waited at the airport for 3 hours.. T_T it was so hot.. because we arrived there at 12noon and we saw my sister at about 3pm.. >.<;; so hot..

well, my sister was thin and kind of fair in complexion.. but now, she gained about 5 kilos.. huwaa.. and she was a little tanned.. ‘coz of the heat in rome.. haha!! i was so jealous of her ‘coz she got to go to the places that i wanted to go to.. T_T

ughh.. anyways, i’m really happy that she’s back..^^

enough of this.. byerz!!