letting go..
†•it takes time, so be patient..•†
Have you ever wondered why is it easier for friends to become lovers than lovers becoming friends? It has been tried and tested that friendship is the best foundation for any boy-girl relationship. But once you parted ways, it is very seldom that you remain friends. Why ? Because probably, you have not gotten over the feeling yet and somehow there is still bitterness and regrets.
Although I’m not an authority on the matters of the heart, the following alternatives could be of help. One, talk about him until even you can’t stand to hear his name anymore. Some people would try to avoid going to the places they’re been or will destroy pictures and love letters that would remind her or him, but the thing is, you’re only suppressing your feeling and will not do you any good. Although it pains to remember the things you used to do, the songs you used to sing and the memories you used to share, but at least you have good things to cherish.
Two, start running, swimming, hiking or cross-stitching. Give yourself a chance to unwind and relax and get busy. You can’t afford to sit at home and cry over and over again. Grow up, it’s not the end of the world.
Three, call someone - your oldest friend, your childhood sweetheart, your mom - who’s guaranteed to convince you that you are too wonderful for the guy/girl who got away. Convince yourself that it’s his/her lost not yours.
Finally, don’t be in a hurry. You cannot get over him in a blink of an eye or in a strike of a wand. It takes some time. After all, time heals all wounds. Letting go may not be an easy task especially if the feeling is still there. But you see, you have to face the reality that some good things just don’t last and life has to go on. Not all love stories end up with "and they live happily ever after". As my friends always say, "Let go of the people who let go of you."
~*SMILE ALL DAY LONG*~
it was a day that lasted for about 10 minutes or so, well for me, it was.. it’s a normal day, with no complications, whatsoever.. i had been smiling and laughing all day, and i think that’s the reason why my cheekbones hurt right now.. -_-
well, im not regretting that i smiled all the day long.. it’s true, i was happy.. just ‘coz i kept remembering him.. xD
it started from chemistry class, which is our first class, so basically, it started at the beginning of the day.. and it continued until dismissal.. i’m really OBSESSED, i tell you.. @_@
~*DISTURBED MIND*~
these last few days, my mind has been drifting somewhere else whenever i’m not thinking of anything.. so, i need to read something every now and then to maintain my mind functioning.. -__- gah! i feel like a crazy [autistic] person.. but i’m not, ‘coz i think i am.. wtf?!
well, people who think that they’re crazy aren’t really crazy.. xD end of discussion..
~*DAY OF REALIZATION*~
tuesday, 01.31.06, about 3:40pm at school, i was asking people at school what they think of me.. i asked a lot of people, and they said some things.. and another, and another, and another, until i grabbed someone’s arm and told the person, "describe luke." [LUKE's my name, you dweebs].. i looked up and met dark brown orbs, which appeared to be black ones at the moment since the light was covered by his figure.. it’s him.. and he said, "di ko alam.." [i don't know].. then, he just walked away.. @_@
i was not disappointed or anything like that.. i just realized something.. the awkward moment that i feel everytime that i see is not because i still love him.. maybe it’s because i want to stay friend, and he doesn’t.. -_- oh well, it’s not really that big of a deal..
xD
oh, another thing.. we’ll have our fieldtrip tomorrow, and ALMOST everyone was excited.. xD
i also joined ate kiel and her friends, pio and biel, to watch a movie at gateway.. =3 we watched PROOF.. xD
